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November 1st, 2007
04:33 pm - NYC flyer
Boy updating every day is really hard! Oh well at least I have something today. This is just a graphic I made for work. It's not often that I get to do art for my on-campus job so I was stoked to do this. I needed to make a flier to advertise this new art history class that is based in New York, literally! The class consists of a 5 day trip to the big apple to look at galleries and stuff. Naturally this class is a bit more expensive than most, but I think I'm going to save up and go. Its worth 3 credits and satisfies one of my core requirements.
It's pictured without the text that I added for the flier (it fills up all the solid areas), because it looks cooler without the words.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/sad.gif) tired
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October 20th, 2007
10:07 pm - Batman
Hawk, this one is for you ^_^
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/happy.gif) cheerful
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12:59 am - "ugly thoughts"
Current Mood: mellow
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October 19th, 2007
01:29 am - Vampire chipmunk
I'm a few hours late on this one, but enjoy Thursdays doodle anyways ^_^
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/awake.gif) awake
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October 17th, 2007
11:45 pm - Daily sketch
Some of my favorite comic artists have been posting daily sketches. Two of them are even here of LJ http://superhappy.livejournal.com/ and http://hawkstudios.livejournal.com/
I think its a wonderful idea to sketch everyday. So I'm gonna try and do the same. Some sort of drawing or image every day. And we kick it off with a crazy skeleton dude!
Current Mood: hungry
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October 15th, 2007
10:01 pm - I just can't leave well enough alone
Against reason I still really want to work on the comic. I've got part of the story reworked so it doesn't feel so much like a John and Melissa thing, but no matter what that history is going to be there. I'm never going to be stable enough to be ok with that 100% of the time. Not without the meds of course, and you all know how much I loooooovvee those. So I'll ride this wave of emotion out, and I'll probably end up somewhere I don't want to be, again. But that's just how I live my life.
If you read this John, I'm sorry I'm a constant source of drama. I have a self-destructive personality and you were a saving grace. Somehow I expected that to last forever, not pondering how it probably affected you.
I think our friendship is over. Anymore "distance" or "time to think" couldn't possibly improve matters on my end. Since that is your recomended course of action I will really try to leave you alone from now on. I have your contact info on a little card in my desk but I took it all off my computer and phone. Not out of malice mind you, in fact I did it with a lot of love. You don't need me, so I'm going to try and not need you. Wish me luck ok? In return I'll wish you the deepest happyness, one that can fill all your days so that they flow together into an endless stream of good things.
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October 14th, 2007
07:40 pm - Comicness
I found myself in an odd position, for my sanity's sake I must try and not work on my comic - even though it is something I very much want to work on. To worsen matters I can't e-mail a certain someone because my address is blocked. *frowns heavily* It's not much but I put enough time into it that I want to share it anyway.
I think most people on here know that this is part of the "Besides" comics. (Two headed girl stuff) This is the second main story from that series. This one is titled "In a Wishless World" and takes place 3 years after the original comic. I don't really feel like doing a write up on it to clarify things, so uh... Yeah.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/okay.gif) okay
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October 13th, 2007
11:31 pm
Long time no write huh? Well, hi. I'm going to try to start journaling more. Today I realized how many things in my life I haven't been addressing. Actually I've been pretty happy, but considering I broke down and cried for 15 minutes today it's become obvious I still have issues.
I feel fine enough right now. Yay for being bipolar I guess.
Current Mood: lonely
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March 31st, 2007
02:21 pm - little bits of thought
It's been a little while since I wrote so I think an update is in order.
My eating problem relapsed over spring break but I seem to have it back under control now. I'm starting to wonder though if I can ever get to a point were there isn't a problem to get back under control. I've been fighting with the disorder since 6th grade, and the whole thing seems to have shifted away from it's main purpose. It's no longer about my parents telling to to lose weight or me thinking I'm fat. It's like... when things go wrong I rely on it as something I can control. Something that is stable and constant within me. How do you fight something like that?
In less depressing news it looks like I'm a shoe-end for the lifeguarding position that I'm applying for. That means I'll be able to stay up at Tahoe for the summer. Which I think will be a lot of fun. I know that there are a few people in Reno that are going to be sad if I stay up here, but staying up here will be a good thing for me. I've been very active and social since I got up here and my stress level seems to have gone down some. Life seems to fall in order better up here so I don't want to let that go.
I hope everyone else is doing fine. Even when it doesn't seem like it I think about everyone all the time.
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November 29th, 2006
11:05 pm - Oh my...
Hmmmm so I killed a weeks worth of dieting in one evening. Chocolate, cheese, jello, whip cream, nuts, bread, cheese cake, and whip cream. Something like 1500 calories in one binge, that's not including the three meals I've already had today. My online diet tracker estamated my excess calories for the day equal about a half of pound of fat.
What disturbs me is the fact that my guilt for all of this is being overwhelmed by the amazingly euphoric feeling I got from tearing into a mountain of food like a starved animal. Really that's how I ate... I nearly ran out of breath because I harldy took the time to breath between bites. Has my dieting made "bad" food all the more enjoyable? Has my recent depression left me looking for things to "fill" my life with? Was I making up for the fact I didn't over-eat on thankgiving?
... I really don't know. And if it doesn't happen again I guess it really doesn't matter. The problem is I was sort of happy as I ate, and I haven't been happy lately.
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November 26th, 2006
02:04 pm
Well thanksgiving has come and passed and I hardly know what to think of it.
I am of course thankful for a great many things; like being able to go to school here and pursue art, the fact my Grampa is still with us despite his kidney desese, and for the fact that I has so many famly and friends supporting me now that I'm actually thankfull for surviving my youth - which I must say is a feeling I hadn't consistently felt till the middle of this year.
What hits me though is the fact thanksgiving use to mean 12-20 family members all crowed in my Mom's house casually catching up on each others lives because they avoid each other for most of the time. It wasn't perfect, but it was family and that was a good thing. This year at my Mom's house there was a total of four people there, andI would like to say we were celebrating together but really there was no happy mood there. My mom and my grandfather just drank gin and rum and my sister spent much of the event in her room. I had this feeling that they all were only there because that's where I was and wanted to be for the holiday. This of course is a bit of a compliment to me but I can't help to wonder, "Why has this happen to my family?"
I of course know the factors that lead to such a thanksgiving and most of them couldn't be helped. Death and divorce has a habit of breaking people apart. I just wish it felt more fair.
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October 31st, 2006
01:11 am - Now it's halloween for real
Well no one offered any input to my previous post. But no matter I ended up compromising pretty well. I had a little to drink then danced it all off. We're talking about 2.5 hours of almost non-stop dancing. It was great ^_^ And I was told by 3 different girls that I was a good/sexy dancer. Go figure. And all three of them vouched that they weren't "just being nice" or being so drunk that anyone looked like a good dancer in comparision.
What got the most comments though was my costume, and more specifically my arm of tatoos. You see to go with my pirate (yes....that's what I was, jeez) outfit I decided a "sleeved" arm would look just plain awsome. So I got some temporary tats and carefully placed them on my arm (and on my back & neck). I did a such a good job that a few people who didn't know me so well asked if they were real. Yay me. I'll share some pics to give you an idea of what everyone saw. Keep in mind I used so many tatoos that you have to look at my arm from every angle to see them all.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/opiummmm/foxies/energetic.gif) energetic
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October 25th, 2006
10:32 pm - Happy almost Halloween
Well I got my costume all set for all hallows eve. Which by the way is the best holiday on the planet. It seems that the school will have a party on the 30th at a local bar. Moday night + Bar = Bad idea! What in the world are they thinking? Now I'm aware that it would be an easy thing to restrict myself to one or two drinks and get home in plenty of time sleep any ill-effects off. I have the will power to do such a thing with great ease. With all honesty though I'm a little over the whole good girl thing. More importantly Holloween is a holiday that needs to be fully celebrated, I've done trick or treating, I've done costumed dances, I have not however drunkenly gone to a party in costume and then attempted to RP some character for the whole night... that sounds like fun.
What's a girl to do?
Current Mood: awake
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October 21st, 2006
10:01 pm - Simplicity
A strange thought came to be. As I've matured in the past few years I think instead of becoming more complex I've actually simplified myself a bit. For example it use to take me weeks of contemplation to anayize a compliment and it's sincerity. Now a days I say thank you, and generally move on. My actions are more strait forward; and I understand my own morals innately instead through complex justification.
Nothing wrong with any of that of course. I just imagined that growing up would be more of an expanding process rather than a condensing one.
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Every Little Thing by Dishwalla
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October 17th, 2006
06:08 am - Pretty Pictures
A little while back my Digital Art teacher managed to make me very angry. To make a long story short she suggested that I was too large to wear risque halloween costumes. To this I bit my tong and decided that I would somehow get back at her with an upcomming asignment. Well I put off that assignment till I didn't have time to make my protest image. I settled instead on making a little collage. I actually consider collage quit a low-brow art form. Anyone can cut out images and paste them together. So in my head I was kind of snuffing the assignment. After all she gave us three weeks to work on it and I doubt I even spent 3 hours on the piece.
So when critique day came imagine my shock when I heard the teacher say "If this had been printed of photopaper I wouldn't have a single bad thing to say." Hmmmm, well ok. It's not like I wanted to fail the assignment; but somehow it seems disheartening that an image a value so little not only failed to make the statement I wanted but also became "The best work I've done all semester."
*sighs* Oh well. And now for you viewing pleasure, my assignment...
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September 24th, 2006
11:47 pm - I probably won't cry about this
My Granny died today. I got the news early in the morning and my first instict was to call someone out side of the family and tell them. But as I laid in bed with my address book open I wondered how many people really needed to know such sad info so early in the day anyways? I decided it wasn't necessarry for me to mope over this. I already knew she was teminally ill, I've even said my goodbyes. She was a kind and sweet lady that didn't need to suffer any more so I'm not going to regret her passing. I think most of my family feels that I'm just trying to bottle up emotions. Even I admit it seems cold that I can mention her death without the least bit of a choke up. I do love her very, very much. It's becuase her presence was such a gift to me that I know I can't waste precious time being sad. So instead I called up my Grampa (from the other side of the family) And told him I wanted to do something special with him. We went to Carson City and looked through the train museum out there. Then we had a good dinner filled with chit-chatter and laughing.
It was a good day, but at the end of it all I think deep down I do want to hide in my room and cry.
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September 18th, 2006
10:44 pm
Well I've been neglecting my accounts on all the sites I use to go to religiously. Most times I don't miss it much. I use to spend too much time online so I may still be burnt out form that. But recently I keep wondering if I should keep updating somewhere. Just so my online-only friends can still keep track of me. It wouldn't be a good thing to throw away all those connections, but at the same time I'm not certain I could keep up with anything online.
If I decided to come back to a site which site? Live journal is the least stressful option but it has the least amount of my friends on it. Everybody that just wants to blog is on facebook or myspace. If I really want to go back online for friends deviantart really is the best place forme to go... I haven't logged on since last year andI still get pageviews. But deviantart is the most stressful option becuase it takes the most time and I have almost too many friends there. Other options include neopets and Gaia...
So what do you guys think?
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December 15th, 2005
06:22 pm - Purple
Purple... I think that accuratly describes today. How... I don't exactly know, I try to not question such things.
I was trying to work on a project/character concept but it wasn't going anywhere. I've hardly done any art down here at all 'cept for doodles. I try to let said doodles work themselves into bigger projects but to no avail. Oh well, here is my dedication to purple day.
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02:54 am - Yup...
Well first of all...neato it's almost been a year since I've been on here last. I probably wouldn't be here right now 'cept for the fact it's 3 in the morning and unless I process a recent thought of mine I know I won't be able to sleep at all tonight. Deal with the energetic parentheses and bad spelling...I really am too tired to care.
::Warning:: this post contains Narnia spoiler info, proceed with caution. (Or just skip to the bottom)
So my roommate (Tracy) and I saw Narnia tonight (pretty good movie) and when we got home another roommate (Mariana) asked us what we thought about it (I enjoyed it... but didn't obsess over it like Tracy did). Tracy loved it but she didn't see the biblical connection. "A connection to the bible?" I ask, "Yes," she replies "there is supposed to be something about Jesus in there". Baffled as to why Jesus would visit Narnia (vacation perhaps?) I listened as she debunks any possible allusion. Unfortunately for me my mind switched to debate mode, which in turn nudged me into defending the other point of view. Then the possible story parallel hits me, and I find myself explaining it to deaf ears which went to bed before I could finish myself. The thought must be finished.
There are four children destined to win the fight of good vs. evil (lion vs. witch ^_^) the younger brother (our possible Judas) however reveals the location of the other three in the hopes of getting a reward from the witch. Because of this betrayal the witch supposedly has a right to the boys life (when you sin the devil will get your soul, don't jya know) to save the boy the lion offers his own life to the witch in exchange. (o.O looks like he's dieing for the boys' sins oh yah, and to save Narnia, AND to complete a prophecy) Yes, that’s right folks; the lion becomes the sacrificial lamb. The two girls (of the fab four) Weep over the lions dead body all night, in the morning they prepare to leave. Upon looking back though they discover that the body has vanished into thin air leaving behind ropes that once bound him (just like burial bandages... I think) they gawk for a moment before a blinding appears before them...and, Viola! A lion in all glory steps forth. Yup, the girls *coughMaryMagdaleneandfollowercough* see the King (of Narnia of course) resurrected just in time to go to war against evil.
::End of crappy spoiler::
So in a nutshell, if you want to consider Narnia a renewed teaching of the bible (with cool special effects I might add) then you could certainly find enough support for your theory. But isn't that true with just about anything? What many people seem to forget is that the bible is a very diverse sort of book and nearly every common story arc is in it and people have been known to read it merely for entertainment value. I mean it has it all; epic battles, love, betrayal, miracles, tests of faith, friendship, destinies, quests, and even fuzzy little animals. Sure there are no aliens in it (Unless you’re a certain someone that believes God is an alien) but it does cover a lot of ground. I think it may be impossible to write a story that could not be compared in any way to the bible.
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